Kamu tak akan pernah bisa memulai kisah yang baru jika kamu tidak segera mengakhiri kisah yang lama.

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A Broken Friendship

I really hate when this would be a broken friendship. Because find a friend is difficult, make a friend is more difficult and maintain a friend is the most difficult.

Sungguh aku tidak pernah membencimu, apalagi menyimpan dendam padamu. Jika saat itu aku berkata sedikit keras, aku mengakuinya sebagai suatu kemarahan, tapi itu hanyalah caraku untuk mengungkapkan rasa kecewa. Mungkin kamu tidak berkenan, tapi percayalah itu hanya sementara. Sampai kapanpun, aku tetap menganggapmu sebagai temanku, tidak ada niatan sedikit pun untuk memutuskan tali silaturahmi ini. Namun jika kamu yang melakuan itu, aku tidak akan memaksamu untuk kembali berteman denganku seperti dulu, mungkin itu sulit bagimu. Di penghujung Ramadhan tahun ini, aku hanya ingin meminta maaf. Semoga kejadian ini tidak menjadi penghalang bagi kita untuk meraih keridhoan Allah. Jika kamu mau, kita bisa berjalan masing-masing. Semoga Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa kita. aamiin.

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Rotating Life

I do believe life is rotating. All thinngs in this world is rotating. Include life. Sometimes, somehow, we feel happy until we can't feel anything because a huge euphoria., but sometimes, somehow, we sad almost long day until we feel numb. Sometimes we smile, we sullen, we laugh, we cry, feel calm, feel busy, loved, to be loved, feeling like, feeling hate.
That's a rotating life.

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...karena Allah tidak pernah ingkar janji..

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I want to wake up in the morning with optimistily, and sleep in the night with comfy.

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MotivArtist ----> Marshanda

It must be written in 20th July, 2013. It's no problem, right? Better late than never hahaha*ngeless.

Today I'm going to seminar, call it Inspirasi Muda Mulia. Ica, my kindergarten mate suggested me to join it. Honestly, my first reason I attended this seminar just because with pay 50 idk for ticket, they will give Wardah products at the same price 50 idk and free tajil (3 kurmas, bread and mineral water) plus "celengan". It means I will get free for seminar hahaha.

Well, I go to seminar with Ica and my sister, Kak Anis. It's wondefully good. I learned about many things. About life, about how to be grateful, how to change my view about this life, looking our life from all views, about dream, about our destiny, about praying and how Allah was and always loves us and accepts/ grants our pray.

I was very excited when Marshanda came and she told us about her life before. She was very suppressed when her friends bullied her. She did'nt find love in home, she losed love from her parent who always contend everyday. Until she thinked, that she doesn't deserve to be loved anymore. Of course that's very painful especially for elementary student like her. She didn't feel comfort, not only in home, but also in school and in her carier. That was bring too much traumatic condition in her life until she realized that she never could accept her parent's decision for separated until 20 years old. Because a lot of pressures beside her, she need to make sure that all things be normal. There were many problems in her past that make her be moody sometimes, feeling sad somehow. She called it unfinished bussiness and since she realized her problems, she decided to healed herself. She needed around 4 months to fight herself with all the problems around her. It wasn't simple process, but a complicated process. One side in herself wants to be normal, and one side in herself againts for that. She was fighting hard. She made videos and posted in youtube (remember about this?). All people said he was going crazy 4 years agobecause the videos. In videos, she cried, she shouted, she sang etc. People said she was stressed, and that's true. But she believe, when people think the time that she upload some videos in youtube is the worst time in her life, she believe that was the breavest part in her life ever. She successed to pull down all the trouble and she solved her problems well. And now, she become more and more wise to face problems, she become closer to Allah, and she become the first motivartist in Indonesia. I'm very amazed to hear her story. Very touching. I almost cry when I watch the video and along she told us, but I don't. Many people in seminar cried.

There are 3 big things I get from her story :

1. Love is not an adjective, but an action.

2. People life, people have some problems. There is no life without problems. If there's no problem, it means people die. I learned how brave Marshanda when she facing her problems. When she solve the problems, she become a true winner, and without the problems, maybe she will not be a wise person like now, maybe she will not be a motivartist like now, maybe she will not standing in front of us now to tell some motivation, and the important thing : maybe she will not become closer with Allah now. Subhanallah.

3. To face the problems, we need no pass from failure to hikmah. From failure, there is a process to make peace with ourselves first, we have to accept ourselves with all conditions, with all things we have. In process, we have to fight, we have to be strong to fight with patient. Like Marshanda, she finished all her unfinished bussiness. And then, after pass the storm, she find hikmah from all the failures and from the processes she has done. And the most important, she said that now is the happiest part of her life.

Thanks for a very very inspiring story today.  Very touching, Caca. Keep motivating, keep happy. Hope we will be better people from time to time.
*I think, I be your fans now hehehe.

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Thank YOU

Sometimes, it feels so hard. Sometimes, I wanna give up. Sometimes, I loss my hopes. Sometimes, I loss my strength. I can't feel anything. Sometimes, all feel same. But sometimes, YOU give me everything what diseppear from me, what I losed before with something better. Sometimes, I forgot that YOU gave me what I want, what I need. Sometimes, I forgot thank you for that, but YOU always do. Thank you :)

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Ya Allah.

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Traffic Jam !

This is my first time in this month I come out home in 4 or 5 o'clock pm. Let's say WOW because traffic jam in Bandung looks like going crazy. I wanna go home from Balubur (my house located in Antapani). From Balubur to Antapani it was still approximately 4 pm. And you know what? Begin from Geology Museum, jam started and it was became worse and the worst is in Cicadas. All I think is only how to arrive home as fast as I can. I'm slipping between two or more cars, among many motorcycle or the other trasnportation and I become fierce if another rider take my way arbitrarily or they are selfish. I arrive home over 5 pm and it's my worst experience about traffic jam in Bandung. Traffic jam is usually found when I lived in Jakarta, but since I live in Bandung for almost 5 years, I never meet the worst traffic jams like this.

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